Passion like Scorsese

Martin Scorsese loves movies so much, it is quite incredible. I want to look back at my life one day and be as passionate about stories or film or what ever it is that gets me. Everyone should have something that they can hold onto, and for me, right now, that is listening to stories fiction or real. It may not help me pass the ib, but what ever it sure helps me get by. <3

ugh.

I am growing so angry and fed up with myself. It is extremely depressing.
While others around me seem to become more sure of themselves and confident in what they want to achieve I fail. I used to be so intelligent and work and study and be competitive about knowledge and achievement, but now I find myself to have fallen so far and I am still falling. I hate me.